Happy Chinese New Year!

Happy Chinese new year to all my Chinese friends from all around. I wish you all good health, wealth and prosperity this year. 

I hope your day is filled with joy and laughter. I know I did.

Happy New Year 2012

So it begins, another new year with the old you. You cannot expect everything to be new. You can anticipate for a renewed life.

A life which makes more sense than the previous year.

Will people actually look back all their past and hope for something different this year? Yes, we all do.
No ones want to be the same, over and over again. Somewhere in the heart demands change, a significant one if could.

Usually words are use to describe, to live with it daily and expecting anything to change is just crap.
Happy New Year everyone.

Sunburst.

My new guitar, a telecaster.

Hope, My view.

This note is about hope. I'm not going to talk trust here, only hope.

Yes your mind is thinking now, in order to have hope in someone or something to happen, you place trust in someone or something for hope to realise. 

Though, hope does not have a two-way communication flow, It could either be good or bad, good as in it goes your way for your own good which will eventually turn into trust, by then only there is We. 

In the stages of hope, there is only You in it. The bad would be dissapointing and somewhat heartbreaking. Two-way communication can lead to an understanding. I won't talk about that for now, I will elaborate what hope can turn into, it's very wide and require a lot of understanding of a person. 

Yes you need a person or bunch of person in order to work, even if it is a thing you hope for, eventually there is someone to help you get it. By now you would think that hope is a gamble, but it is much more complex than that, gambling could lead you with uncertain result and you will always desire it to win and by the point of losing you lost yourself in indulgence of gambling and addicted in the circle outcome of gambling. 

Hope is a beautiful thing that even the situation doesn't go the way it hope, the opposite result will lead the person hoping, will forgive himself and other party involve. The person hoping will be grateful if the hope eventually fall in place, the reason why I use eventually is that there are trials and tribulation going on and battle against what you are hoping during the period when you hope.

Things might get rough, eventually (again) some would let go of hope. If you are able to endure the process, the outcome might not be entirely exactly like what you have expected, but it will be more beautiful and more better then the original hope that you have asked for.

Me.

Girl, You need to know

People we met, people we talk to, they all come and go. No one stay close to you all the time even if you choose to let them be. All the long hour waiting for a reply,hope you get a respond or whatsoever, wasted your time waiting. You might think what have you done in return to all the cold answers you get. Do not expect too much, give and take, you might be more happier the way it is. 

They just want to avoid you, you know it, you sense that, you know all about it, not replying or answering, or words that directly shuts you down ( tells you to stop whatever your doing now), replies that do not ask why (because they do not really care), all the short replies. These are all to be afraid of, especially the long reply which directly tells you that, I AM BUSY (Being Under Satan's Yolk). Busy, a word use by those just to get rid of you, you know about it, there's no question about it too.

BUT when you SEE/SAW them in the mall, the streets, restaurant, hot spots, clubs, all the places you describe, THEY AREN'T Exactly busy, they can still go to club, hanging out with their friends, wearing nicely and you thought about the earlier message which you THOUGHT that she is probably TOO OCCUPIED with WORK or whatever the reason, you've been wrong. Everyone who does not face this means there's no particular interest in the person. If you do, you like the person and you know that person is important.

You see, you care when nobody cares about you, who ignores you, who does not want you around when he/she is chilling with buddies (only when they need you will they contact you, tool)

If you knew your being used as a tool, stop being one. But you like being used don't cha? >)

Let me get to my point, When you see them outside They can wave to you, smile at you, ask you why your here,They can just talk to you like BUDDIES!!!!!  LIKE EVERYTHING IS NORMAL.of course you two are friends and NORMAL would totally fit, I guess you were close too BUT your just one of the many friends he/she have.

 For you, as someone who haven't seen the light, there is none. You know your heart has been hurt so badly, that you just want to excuse yourself from the scene. You just want to get out of there, ignore the person, Do not want to see the person. Some may tear for such a friend. You know what sucks next? The friend can even call you, text you in the club to say, you walked passed me or what not replies you can get from like nothing has happen. Loads of things run through your mind. You've calmed down. your heart is too soft. You do the necessary, you text back, to even end up in cold brutal reject.

Worst comes to worst, they see you as their siblings, the brotherhood relationships. Your're F*CKED. End up getting "What the F*ck is wrong with you wei?!"

You heard of it loads of time, you wanted to say something back, I love you.

Crushed across the heart

Today is a great day to be crushed and torn to pieces.

Talking to the Moon Bruno Mars

I'm still trying to get to you...








I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back
I want you back
My neighbors think
I'm crazy
But they don't understand
You're all I have
You're all I have

Chorus:

At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself

Talking to the Moon
Trying to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

I'm feeling like I'm famous
The talk of the town
They say
I've gone mad
Yeah
I've gone mad
But they don't know
what I know

Cause when the
sun goes down
someone's talking back
Yeah
They're talking back

At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the Moon
Trying to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

Ahh Ahh,
Ahh Ahh,

Do you ever hear me calling?
Cause every night 
I'm talking to the moon
Still trying to get to you

In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away

Clear about something.

Hello friend or stranger.
I don't know if I'm just being plain lazy or just plain nuisance.
I got this enormous feeling that I only write blog when I'm really bored or emotional besides that maybe a few upload about happy moments, but most of it, I wasn't just writing for the sake of writing it was for a time where I would love to share about what I learn, It's sorta off mixed feelings all together in one.

Okay, that clears it.
Celebrated my birthday with few of my closest friend. Had a great time with them even-though the time is so short with each other.
Rushed assignment like crazy, had headache after all that, forgot to do print some paper during my hand ins.
What a rush! I need to get back to my feet.