It takes a glance.

Ever thought that a person who shows interest in you ask question more often that to JUST agree positively what you have just said or mention?

like they don't even give a damn about what you said but they are just ganna laugh about it or comment which flows or pretend that they didn't hear a word you have just said?
Well I have and I find it hurtful to even consider such as friend, I know how it feels to me but I understand as well how they feels.
They don't feel connected or interested in what you have said, because you are invisible, you don't appeal to them and all they could care is those who they wanna feel close with, definitely not you! Let's just forgive them, maybe it's someone who you wanna show interest in by getting their attention more towards you, but thats not ganna happen because everytime you went out with them or just a particular person, there WILL be another person around PROTECTING/PREVENTING exactly the thing that you wanted to happen, which is to get close to the person.

Feel like your in the right shoe with me?Exactly but maybe they weren't aware but the more your getting in, the more the person in demand. You'll be lucky to survive.

What i want to say to those people is, give love a chance. sigh.
For what may come into ur way, perhaps he/she has already showing interest to other people but its not you cuz your not in his/her realm but rather in outer space with vacuum and hoping to get suck in to the realm but wait ur invisible, perhaps u might be close to the moon but the earth aint diggin it, he/she prefers those satelite hanging around better than u.. so get a fucking live and fucking move on.

The little things.

As time goes by, I thought your Just a dream that goes by every end of the night
This feeling is not empty but eventually blend into some aroma we once favor but never know what exactly needed to taste better, like the 1st time your making coffee for "two".
As time goes by, your cup of coffee changes into something better if not for a time being till you capture what I mean.
Notice how I relate your cup of coffee into "ice blended coffee" which ever you favor now but the main ingredient still is..... well i guess you know :D

"You didn't mention about ice blended coffee, why out of no where you say that? it makes me confused!"
1st, you got to know the difference in making a normal cup of coffee and ice blended coffee, learn this two field, its entirely different cause I say so, if you ever blend one the right way, you'll know.

DO you really want to make coffee that taste just like coffee coffee? or coffee which feels like whole?
Whats the difference?a smile after 1st sip and just coffee after 1st sip. Can you hold to that smile long enough to appreciate it? I know I do, but is everyone the same? some people walks by small little appreciation which comes from the heart and some notice big favor, which is as close as dream that suppose to let it be what it is.

Dumb.

Have you "drown" in an relationship so badly that you can't get out from it and wish you could just die?
Let me share with you some good news, don't be! Be grateful how you got in and never got out...
Yes, keep drowning guys and girls because, love is eternal, I know you refuse to believe me but for what good it did or what bad it brings, your one step closer to an even closer relationship. You asking why I said that? It's because you did bribe your way out by lying to yourself how you feel and pain of losing who knows, maybe future wife/husband. By learning more what most people don't, congratulations! DO you remember this first time you accidentally spill something about you that YOU don't want the person to know?

"Shit, now she/he knows my weakness, what am I ganna do?"

By now, you know it would be awkward to even see her/him, but do you know what has just happen? Honest truth! give it some time, explain and she/he will eventually understand and glad that you didn't hide from her/him.

"Don't you wish you just don't know the person at first place?"
Now hold your horses, hardly what the opposite person ever does, you probably going to found out sooner or later, now danger it might seem to be, but i rather bet on a person i know so well than to a perfect stranger who acts nice.


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Actually I wanted to say, whatever happens I wish things would change around, I don't want to live in despair and anxiety by sleeping in the car alone and problems in my heart. sigh

Done!case close, i know its vague, try hit me with some question

Waited.

*Beware!before continue reading,another personal(emo) post.. you wouldn't understand a word..haha*

For long he have waited, silently through the night patiently, waiting for the wind to blow.
For him making his hand fan for wind, it lasted until the hand stops.

The Cell.
It was build square, no window but a queen size bed for two. The blue moon mark on the blanket were comfy. There is a door, it was locked. He has the key.

Alone.
Very quiet. For he did not use the bed, the floor seems much cooler unlike the bed which is warm. Waiting silently for the door to open, he did send a couple of message out from the door. No reply. No answer. He was helpless to wait for the call. Should he just open the door and walked out? Or just wait, like what his doing now?

Why?
The moment he made the wind angry, he was living in a box. The moment in there made him realize how important it was. It was really important, because the wind has frozen his heart and took it away.

What should he do?
Chase after the wind or his own heart? waiting for the wind to return? what is it?
should the heart gone missing is the mistake of his, he is making it seems like its his own fault. Indeed it is.